In thinking my daughter deserves a much better mummy than me?

[rollonbedtime]

Hi, I have namechanged, as I'm to embarassed to let you know who I am.
I have a daughter who will be 5 in March. She has verbal dyspraxia and is delayed by one year in all areas of her development. I do think that in some ways she's quite bright though. She is extreamly talkative and appears very bright. She is also the most loving, caring little girl you could meet.
I often find myself getting irritated by her lack of understanding though. Sometimes I think, Oh for crying out loud, why don't you get this simple idea? Sometimes I don't know how to explain something to her, as the question just dosn't make sence.
I really want to do my best to help her to learn, but often feel like I'm banging my head against a brick wall. What I say, often dosn't seem to register with her.
I find it harder sometimes because she is so confident and talkative, I'm always trying to keep up with what she's saying.
I know it will harm her confidence if I say "I'm sorry, I don't have a clue what you're talking about". I just wish I had more patience, and knew how to answer her obscure questions in a way that would help her to make sence of things. I often hear myself saying "o.k T, just calm down" which is a polite way of me saying, just shut up for two minutes please.
I love her more than life it's self, and feel very disapointed in myself that I'm not always the fantastic mummy that she deserves.

I think we all feel that our DCs deserve better mummies at times. And we all have those moments when you just want to shout "just stop talking and leave me in peace!"

How about when you feel like that to sometimes say "T Mummy needs quiet for a minute - come and have a quiet cuddle"? I did that a few times so that I didn't feel so guilty about just wanting him to STOP ASKING QUESTIONS! Cuddling is always good - esp if it saves your sanity.

You sound like a fab mum. It does sound like there might be some issues with your DH though so you feel that it is all on you?

I think you need to develop some stock phrases to keep up your sleeve for when you don't understand her and just need a break without damaging her confidence - 'that's an interesting one T, how about we talk about that at bedtime', 'you've got me stumped there, I'll need to think about that one'. Then maybe put a bit of time aside each day (towards the end when the end is in sight) and make it a special time to go over all this stuff.

Thanks everyone. You probubly do know my usual name sunny. Lol, I thought someone was bound to work it out. I thought I'd throw people off the scent by calling her T and not L. (now there's a clue)
I don't think I needed to name change after all. It seems as if every parent has more patience and tollerance than me, but I'm happy to know that we probubly all feel like that from time to time.
Thank you so much to everyone who's posted. I feel much better now.

Glad you feel better tonight, rollon.

Fwiw, I think you sound like an incredibly patient Mum.

And I have no idea who you are!

I have just worked out that my DC1 has Dyspraxia. I am going to the Dr's next week to get a referal to specialist for a diagnosis, so we can get some support for him at school and to give us some strategies to help him and us.

I really feel for you as my patience is really runing thin with him and have to keep reminding myself it is not his fault.

I have also joined the Dyspraxia Foundation and recieved a pack this morning, which shall read over the weekend.

www.dyspraxiafoundation.org.uk/