Difficult one this and am prepared to be told IABU (regular BTW name changed for this)!
After a horrible marriage and split from an abusive XH, caught up with an old friend and got together in Jan!
He seemed lovely, kind, loving, generous, lovely to my DC In fact he is all of those things!
But it didnt feel right to me, maybe not ready after ex, maybe he wasnt the one I dont know!
So last week, I gently broke it off with him, he was gutted, and has been telling me how much he loves me, and my girls, will wait for me however long it takes me to get my head straight and decide what I want, that we are best friends, all in a very nice kind way, no pressure!
In fact he has been so lovely I was doubting my decision....
All this by email and MSN as he works away in a fairly inaccessible place!
So last night after we signed off, I snooped ...ok ok I know I shouldnt have but well I guess I was curious, wanted to know if he had spoken to his friends...
I know his passowrds, he told me them, so I logged into his hotmail (yes yes I know).....
To discover.......4 hours after I sent him the initial email telling him I wasnt sure I was ready for a relationship, he reactivated his account on some slagwhore sex website!!!
And has been messaging loads of semi naked women who are clearly after one thing only!!
In fact while he was chatting to me, he was online browsing naked tarts....and when I signed off to go to bed amidst his protestations of love and waiting for me and missing me...he messaged about 10 women, saying they looked hot/would like to chat/would like a night out!!!
Am really not all that upset, guess it just confirms I made the right decision, but christ!!!! Is this how he waits for me, I was actually wavering, I genuinely thought he was a good one!!
Bah!! Ok so I know I was totally BU to snoop, but AIBU to be a bit disappointed that this is how much he loves me and is waiting for me.....I had indicated that maybe I had been too hasty and he was planning to come down in Dec to talk!!!