I feel like screaming, I'm so sick of throwing up,feeling like shit. And yeah ok it'll all be worth it in the end. But I want pate and cream cheese and alcohol and to smoke a joint. Ok, I've never smoked one before, but I want to have the choice to get out of of my head. My mood swings are furious, my patience is short, my back hurts and yes this is all about me but i don't care!!!!. The house is a state, my mum can only do so much, it's pissing it down and ds is cooped up driving everyone nuts with far too much energy. Argh!!