no seriously i could quite easily just push him in front of a very big truck right now.
he has fought me in court for the past 4 years to gain access to teh children.
just before christmas i finally gave up fighting and agreed fortnightly weekend visits.
he was due to have them last friday till sunday.
on Thursday he calls at about 5pm to say that he can't have them and could he have them next weekend (today0 instead. i asked why as this would seriously upset the children as they are expecting to see him.
first he says its because he has no money and so he can't take them out. i explain that he doesn't take them anywhere normally so why is this week different? he continues abtu wanting to take them swimming but wont be able to afford to. i offer to give him the £10 so he can take them swimming.
he then decides that actually no, its because he has been offered som ecasual cash in hand work and that if he does this job it means he could contribute towards the childrens uniforms ( we receive no maintenance and nor have we ever) and that he could take the children out.
Fine i say.
This afternoon he texts me to say that he will collect the children at 5pm (instead fo the usual 4)
because of severe DV he is not allowed to know where i live so i have to meet him at a local train station for handover.
at 4pm i get a text message saying that he will be there at 4:15. i reply saying " we'll not be able to get back to the station until about 5. sorry"
i get no reply.
at 4:50 we are literally seconds from teh station i get the text "we cant wait. were going"
i text saying we are in teh car and will be with him within a minute.
we get there and there is no sign. i call him and he just tells me that its my fault, i was messing him around. why couldn't i get there like he told me.
he could have only left seconds before but he wouldnt turn back to meet the children.
my children are now devestated. they were really upset about last weekend so this weekend was important.
because he is so volatile i spoke to his sister to explain what happened. she told me that he had told his family that the reason he didnt have the childre last weekend was because i told him he couldnt have them as i was taking them away for a break!!
he had lied to his mother who had driven him down to get the children. he hadnt told her about my texts at all and just amde it seem like i was an hour late!
i explained to his sister about how upset the children were. she obviously passed this on and so i got a screaming voicemail telling me "your a horrible fat cunt and when i find you i promise you i will kill you. i am going to fucking kill you"
a few seconds later i get another call from him whcih i answer. he is shouting at me blaming me for him not being able to see his children. he lied again saying that they couldn't wait because they had his neice in teh car ( i know this is untrue as i was speaking to her mother - his sister just moments before) and then he starts screaming at me that i told him he couldn't have his children last weekend!!!
he is totally derragned. i don't know what to do. we are now totally discharged from teh court so its not as though we can just go back. we'd have to start a whole new case. but i just cannot put my children through this again, and quite frankly he is clearly in no fit mental state to look after them.
My children will be devesated if i stop contact though.
its a fucking nightmare of his making and i hate him for putting me in this position.
also it has now caused a major headache as Dp and i have planned to take his 2 children to the ice age 3 premiere and obviously i now have my 2 children as well.
Please, someone, just lend me £10k for a hitman.