to be sitting here almost crying because..

[TheLadyEvenstar]

Ok dp and ds1 went fishing yesterday, today we were meant to be going with ds2. I woke up at 6.15 with a migraine and mentioned this to dp. He said well take a book if you don't want to fish today. to which i replied i do i just need a while for this blasted headache to clear up. Anyway he takes ds1 to school and comes back ds2 and I are sitting here waiting to go and dp loads the car up putting his sat box on the seat where ds2's car seat goes.
So i said where is DS2 going to sit?

cue a row so he goes off fishing leaving me here telling me he is going again tomorrow and any other time he wants. I tell him I need him to be more hands on when he is at home.
We end up rowing via text message and phone.

I am so fcuking angry...I know he works but i am home with ds2 all day every day and just wanted some time out of this poxy flat with another adult.

So even though he's buggered off for the day fishing on his own, he's still being selfish by not coming home in time for you to go out!

I would wipe the floor with him personally but no doubt someone will come along and tell you that yabu and you should cut your dh some slack.

Btw, can you guess that I've just had a row with my very own dh?

I didn't go out in the end, but he came home did all housework I refused didnt have time to do. and then put the wii on and got us all playing until i was belly laughing at him us all. Prob is i am like a dog with a bone and not backing down where as he wants to be my best friend.

I suggest you go out tomorrow and buy something very expensive for yourself! Even if he doesn't notice what you've bought I'm sure he will notice the bill!

I really suggest you go to a baby group. It will do your DH absolutely no harm at all to not be able to picture you sat at home when he's out and about. You need to create a bit of life for yourself.

I am fairly shy and dreaded going to baby group, I also didn't like how I looked after having the baby and had nothing to wear and generally looked and felt like sh*t in myself.

I eventually dragged myself down to one (by promising myself I would never ever go again if I didn't like it) and was pleasantly surprised. Not least because there were plenty of other mums who looked just like me. Made me realise I was being too hard on myself. It's done me the world of good.

If you can get to an organised activity eg baby swimming, that's even better as there is a focus to the meeting so you don't have to think of so much to say initially.