And stop showing excitement when I'm looking forward to an event. Every time I do the plans end up falling through and I end up feeling hurt and horrible.
Examples:
West Midlands Safari Park with friends: Second group decided they wanted to go and because they were late the reserve closed so we missed out.
Ice skating attempt 1: By the time me and my mate had directions to a rink it was too late.
Ice skating attempt 2: I get home from work only to find my friends have decided not to go.
Ice skating attempt number 3: Was supposed to be tomorrow, for my friend L's birthday. She didn't want to drive, and 2 friends who can drive agreed to if needs be. One said he'd swap his shifts, swaps them so he can go out with different mates instead of us. Other lad wants to go clubbing so has also said no. I booked holiday from work especially for tomorrow so I am very upset.
Uni BBQ: Was at work. Luckily for me it was cancelled on the day really.
I just feel like every time I look forward to something, it falls to bits. I won't bother getting excited about possible uni trip to New York because chances are that'll go down the pipes as well.
Sorry, feeling very sad, I used to ice skate loads before my family moved, and there's no rink near us, so whenever someone offers to go I get really excited. I don't drive btw or I would.