I have posted about my Mum before so it does not come as a complete surprise that I am moaning about her yet again.
Bit of background I am the eldest of 4 we always were provided for but never got any hugs or affection from her she never did things like read us stories or play games .
When any of us three girls have done something she disapproves of she disowns us the longest was my middle dsis for 4 years then me for two years and youngest dsis for two years aswell .
We have a younger brother who lives with her they both argue constantly and she will not let him grow up he is 18 and she rings him to see where he is and he will not get a job I think this may be because of low confidence she know uses him to do all the housework and buys him a packet of cigs for it .
Me and middle dsis were chatting today she is going through a rough time financially and is ttc probably resulting in needing IVF my Mum has said to me that it will be just something else for her to get attention for and has not spoke to her about it .My dsis also borrowed £20.00 when things were bad a couple of weeks ago and my Mum is always on her back about it even though she knows how much she is struggling .
My Mum also owes four grand to the council tax and they are taking her to court for it I agreed to make a payment every week on my debit card (she dosen't have one) and she would give me the money I have paid it four times now and each week she is making excuses and telling me she didn't want to pay it but I then have my Dad who works away ringing me up to make sure it has been paid .
She only wants to see the gc when they are tiny babies and has little to do with them when they hit six months she will not have them alone and calls herself emergency nanna . I do not expect her to have them but we are expected to drop everything when she wants something.
She also has a go at me often for stuff that happened when I was a young child I spent a lot of time with my Godmother (who I actually credit with me turning out to be a half decent parent) and she now resents the close relationship I had with her.
I feel bad posting this bit but she drinks most nights at least 4 lagers . Last week my dbrother filmed her when she was very drunk (she drinks alone) she had got blotto Friday and Saturday night . He was trying to get her to bed and she looked so disgusting and a mess then she went psycho and threw a beer can at my brothers head .
My Dad is just as bad he works away most of the time but my youngest sister caught him snorting coke .
I hate that my parents are like this my Mum is like a child and we all have to sort out her problems .
I am scared my brother is going to become an addict me and my sisters all seem to realise we had a lucky escape and are not like them at all I usually use my Mum as a role model of how not to behave .
I just feel a bit hormonal and crappy today and just want a Mum who would give me a hug sorry for Mammoth post.