I kinda gfot the impression OP you cared very much and only came on here to get a virtual kicking?
Either you have poor self esteem and like to feed it or h=get a buazz out of being thought of as the wickedest witch
Or actually my third guess is the most likely- in rl you are meek mild and put upon and much like a toddler negati ve attention is better than no attention.
Eiher way I am certain you DO care!
Counselling?