Have a great DH who I love to bits. Every couple of months or so I meet up with ex for a drink, sometimes a meal out. We were together for 5 years and broke up about 7 years ago. When we meet up its always platonic, we ask about each others partner, children etc and chat about general stuff like our families and work. We never talk about our relationship together, ever. I enjoy seeing him as I am still fond of him and he's a really clever, witty bloke. I don't fancy him anymore, and I don't think he fancies me. Our breakup was civil, we both just wanted different things, I wanted marriage, children etc he felt he was too young.
Problem is, after I've seen him, I spend hours remembering all the sex we had. Which then makes me feel really guilty. Can't seem to stop myself though, and sometimes worry that this means I must still fancy ex. Will I ever be able to think of him, without the sex element or is this just plain impossible?