And as a single parent.
Just writing it seems more than a bit to me.
The thing is that, pre-DS, I spent a few years working on my singing and songwriting and wanted to make a go of it - and then fell pregnant. I have buried it ever since.
A neighbour was talking about one of her favourite songs the other day, and I mentioned that I had a recording of me singing it. She asked for a copy, so I dug it out (it had a couple of my own songs on there, too), not thinking much of it really but touched by her interest. She later came charging over to my house, breathless with enthusiasm and insisting she'd go out and buy my music tomorrow if it were available. She pleaded with me to let her put me in touch with a recording industry friend.
I'm rather blown away and excited, TBH - but also cautious as I know how few people succeed with this kind of career, despite working at it tirelessly.
I trust her implicitly - she doesn't have a screw loose, is switched-on, lovely, professional, etc - which makes it all the more surreal. I felt inspired to dig out some of my old songs and have a listen and a play, and I felt tentatively encouraged.
I'm on the brink of getting a decent-but-not-especially-exciting job to keep DS and I fed and clothed. I'm now wondering if I be sensible and go for that job, or give this singer-songwriter thing another go while I'm still youngish, if it's at all workable financially. And what about DS? Could it really be workable with him and his needs? (I've been a SAHM until now.)
Is this all a bit crazy now I'm "all grown up", or worth taking a serious look at?