My mum died in Jan after a five year period of very bad health and multiple medical emergencies. She was in hospital seriously ill 20+ times.
It's left me with severe anxiety, agoraphobia, panic disorder and I think PTSD.
I'm currently taking 200mg Sertreline per day which isn't helping. My GP keeps saying I need to give it more time to work but I've been on this dose for three months now and I still can't go outside without having a panic attack. I've just been sitting on the couch trying to do some work and had such a strong surge of anxiety I had to have a cold shower to stop it.
I've already stopped caffeine, massively reduced how much sugar I eat, have a treadmill and have walked on it so much I've bruised my toenails (I walked for 6+ hours yesterday) I have no life. I don't see my friends or family. On a really bad day it's a struggle for me to get out of bed and on bad weeks my house is disgusting.
I also get air hunger which is absolutely miserable and is contributing to the panic attacks. I'm absolutely exhausted and totally fed up of feeling like this.
The only time I've felt normal this year was the week of my mam's funeral when I had a prescription of Diazepam. It didn't make me feel good or high, just stopped the physical anxiety. I'd really like to try some pregablin or gabapentin but I keep getting refused because it's not prescribed for anxiety according to my GP. I genuinely don't know what to do next.