First, I lament my twenties, when I thought I was fat but definitely wasn’t. Now I’m in my 50s. Have struggled with my weight over the decades, but also struggled with how to deal with it - mostly resulting in just giving up! I tried no/low carb, WW, SW, blah blah blah. In my head I made excuses, especially re my underactive thyroid, though it does make things a bit harder.
For some reason, I seem to have had a flip switch this year. I signed up to an app (Nutracheck), started logging everything I eat, made a few minor adjustments. I’m not a sweet/dessert person, but I was an absolute fiend for savoury and carbs. Much rather hot buttered toast than a bar of chocolate.
I have just made very small changes - rather than a sandwich with thick white bread, I’ll now have a wholemeal roll/bap or a bagel thin. I’ve definitely cut down on traditional type crisps, but I’ll have wotsits or walkers french fries, or small bags of sweet and salty popcorn. For dinners I’ve been having things like chicken burgers in a bun with a few french fries, stir fries with noodles, a load of chicken with a couple of roast potatoes and a Yorkshire pudding plus veg, Thai chicken curry and rice. Basically not depriving myself of food that tastes blooming great.
I’ve lost 1.5 stone since the beginning of July. Yes, it’s taken a while. Have had a couple of weeks where I’ve gained one or two pounds. But, for the most part, it’s been gradually going down. And I’m still a bit gobsmacked at how easy it’s been and how, even on a week where I’ve gained, my brain hasn’t gone straight to “fuck it, what’s the point”. I can only assume it’s because I’ve not tried to eliminate any food group at all, but that I’m logging my intake/macros each day. It’s the most relaxed I’ve felt around food in a very long time and, not going to lie, it feels great especially getting thus far with an underactive thyroid.
I think I’ve accepted the fact that I’m never going to be the perfect figure for all types of clothing, but I’ve realised that I can feel good in what I know suits me. And I’m really enjoying eating what I really like, but in moderation, and that it’s very slowly having an effect on the scales. It’s not a chore and it’s not occupying my every thought.