I've been working for an environmental organisation for just over 2 years. I started as maternity cover but was kept on as a job share. Whilst I get on with my job share partner ok, she has tried to be very critical of everything things that I do and pull me up on things all the time. I was confident in my abilities but seem to have started making quite a few mistakes. I've also had some problem with my health and some major issues in my personal life, and things are starting to go sour at work. I've upset a few people, not intentionally but just doing what I thought was right. I've had issues with too much work being put on me (I work part time along with caring for a family member), my manager has now started saying that I'm doing things 'half arsed'. I went off sick for a month due to my physical and mental health. I've been back a couple of weeks and I've messed up again! I technically did something illegal with a protected species, it didn't even occur to me that it wasn't a good idea (in my defense I thought it was a non-protected species).
Now I'm thinking I'm just shit! I used to be really good at previous environmental jobs, i have a lot of previous experience (I'm in my 50's)but this one is going from bad to worse! The volunteers I work with all seem to like me and were saying that they were really happy to have me back. But I can't seem to do anything right with my manager and some of the other staff. So, should I just jump before I'm pushed? I'm going to see Occupational health to discuss reasonable adjustments as my health issues are long term, but I just think my cards are marked now.