Since January last year I've been living with PMDD. I'm 38 and my youngest child is 8. I'm on no contraception or regular meds (husband had the snip).
Every month is getting worse for me. I'm usually the happiest, most outgoing person and have got no mental health problems (amd never had). But the 2 days before period are hell. I go from absolute rage where i am vile to everyone, to the most extreme sadness I've ever felt. I'm unable to function with normal life whatsoever. If I work I camt go into the office and I have to cancel all plans as I'm such a wreck. The last 6 months I've felt suicidal during those 2 days each month, like the world would be a better place without me and now I even dream about how I will do it. When I wake up alive I'm sad that I'm still here. By the daytime I can talk myself around to knowing that 95% of the month i would never dream of dping anything like that.
I cant go on the pill due to migraines. I've spoken to 2 GPs at my surgery and now a private GP and they've all told me I need to go onto sertraline. I know nothing about these, apart from i really dont want to take them.
Can anyone with experience of any of this tell me
- is it worth it for 2 days a month?
- what are the worst side effects?
- did you prefer taking them every day, or just the 2 weeks leading up? I've been given both options
I know I can't carry on how I am, but if anyone has any solutions that didn't involve anti depressants I would be so grateful.
Thanks