Broke down at work

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I broke down crying at work today, things been stressful for the past few months (short staffed) and I just don't feel like I am coping. I've made a few mistakes and I don't think my work is up to the usual standard. I have told my manager that I'm struggling with my workload in the hours that I work.
So today my manager asked me about one of the mistakes I made (which I already feel so annoyed about) and I just started crying. I have some health worries going on outside of work which I hadn't shared as I have previously been made to feel like a problem employee due to my condition.
I think the stress and mistakes are coming from having so much on my mind and not being able to concentrate on a task without being pulled to another.

It sounds like you need some time off. Do you get paid sick leave?

I hope you’re feeling better soon 💐

yes but I've just had some time off only went back in March

Agree sounds like you're unwell. Is there access to occupational health as a first step? Was your manager kind when you cried? Genuinely no job is worth your tears but I totally understand how all consuming it can be.

It doesn’t matter if you need time off you need to take it and look after yourself first

I'm sorry. That sounds awful for you. I hope you can access support from occupational health.

It sounds like you really would benefit from some time off. It doesn’t matter that you had some time off in March. Put yourself first and call in sick.

Sorry girl - don't be afraid to put yourself first

Maybe take a week to compartmentslise things, your health, your personal stuff, the work problems and come up with a way forwards? x

Sorry to hear this. You must be worried about what they think. They’re probably just worried about you and don’t think negatively about you. People have other stuff going on outside work and even if they don’t, being over worked at work is reason enough to get upset. Was it just in front of the manager? Can you or would it help to disclose your health issues? Would they be supportive? It sounds that they might be a bit off if you disclosed things that have happened in the past. However, can you discuss some adjustments? They might be willing to help reduce workload or hours or something. That would be better than you taking time off sick entirely? They’d be even more one person down and in an even worse situation. Can you compose an email to say that you’re struggling at the moment with workload and aware you’re making mistakes and need some compromises otherwise you cannot see things improving in the short-term and would end up taking time off sick… Ask them what they can do about it? What is your sick pay like? If you cannot take sick, you’ll have to focus on the quality of your work and set you ring term it is where you want it to be and want to improve it by reducing the workload.

The thing that has actually stood out from your post is that your work is short staffed. I personally find myself making mistakes when this is the case as you are under pressure and don’t have the usual time to check things.

Be kind to yourself as it seems like management play a part in this if you’re constantly short staffed! If you are unable to carry out your work in the hours you have due to being short staffed then that is on management and they need to get some more staff in even if it’s a temporary thing.

Luckily it was just in front of my manager. I explained that I have some health appointments coming up and I'm feeling quite anxious about them I didn't go into detail but she knows I have had cancer in the past.
I told her I don't feel comfortable talking about my health due to being made to feel like a problem in the past (not with her)

Have you exhausted your paid sick leave allowance for the year? If not, take sick leave again. No job is worth your health.

I have about a two weeks left

No job is worth your health OP x

Have you worked today OP? Hope things are better for you x