How do I stop getting in my own way?

[MaggieMagpie1]

I am so annoyed at myself, I can't seem to stop doing things or not doing things that make my life more difficult. I complain about being exhausted or anxious a lot (and I am definitely both of those things) but if I could just get my shit together then I think I'd have a life I'd like and I don't know how to get myself to stop/start doing the things I need to.

I've been on Mounjaro since July last year, I've lost just over over 4st so far. I know I'm incredibly lucky to just be able to afford it. BUT, I'm buying healthy ingredients to make into meals....I love to cook, and love the recipes I make and how they make me feel...and I'm just...not doing it. Skipping meals, buying treats (cause I'm skipping meals and I 'deserve' them) and then getting frustrated as I'm so slowly losing weight. I'm wasting my money on this unless I sort that out. The ingredients are also being left to go off...which I'm also ashamed about.

I have GAD and OCD. They are both massively helped by exercise...movement of any kind but recently strength training and running have made me feel amazing, so so much better than I have in years...again I'm just not doing it. I know it'll make a massive difference, almost immediately. Why am I not doing it?

I'm involved in a hobby that I really love. I volunteer to take on roles to do with it then....don't prepare for it. Cue stress, anxiety, and excusing myself from it for another week, to give me more time to prep...which I then don't do and the whole thing starts again. It's not that I can't do the prep....I just don't.

My house is a mess, I don't just mean untidy, it needs properly cleaned on a regular basis. I love my little space and love it when it's clean, tidy, and organised. I'm capable of doing it but I just don't.

I don't know where to start really, and I'm just desperate for help or ideas, I feel like such an idiot.

Just giving this a wee hopeful bump

Do you procrastinate a lot? I've noticed I do that a lot when I am feeling anxious about something. Its not down to laziness, its about fear and feeling overwhelmed.

I think you have to accept that when you are feeling out of control of something (or your life in general) the only remedy for it is action. It doesnt have to be a huge action but take some action nevertheless. Getting shit done also releases dopamine in your brain which helps mood.

I would make a small daily task list thats manageable and realistic. Just one thing per day. Otherwise it will feel like climbing a mountain. People always assume that to achieve something great you suddenly just do something incredible but life isnt like that. True change and transformation comes due to the stacking of many good daily habits.

So, get your diary and a pen and put in a small daily goal each day. Thats it, no more, no less. Then commit to doing it. When you get to the end of the week, give yourself a treat.

You arent an idiot btw- you're just stuck is all.

I don’t have the answers op but I hear you & you aren’t alone in feeling /acting like this! Following in the hope you get some good advice!! 💐