I’m in a really intense phase of work, currently juggling my business and also a second job which is a good opportunity I couldn’t turn down because it could lead to future work maybe even as part of my business. It’s just one day a week and I work for my business in the evenings and on Mondays Thursdays and Saturday mornings.
it means I’m juggling a lot. Childcare (two kids aged 3 and 5), household, friendships, and both jobs.
on Sunday I’m taking the eldest away on a city break for three nights abroad. I’m already feeling really guilty about not taking the youngest although I understand he’s too young and very very boisterous so a city break with just me without his dad would not be a good idea until he’s a bit older.
im also really anxious about the flight I do have a fear of flying these days and almost don’t know why I agreed to go (we’re going with my friend and her 5 year old).
anyway on Tuesdays I have a day off until the evening to spend with my youngest but I felt so overwhelmed with work, admin, organising stuff for this trip that I asked his grandparents to have him for a couple of hours this afternoon. That means I now won’t see him until tomorrow morning as I work in the evenings on Tuesdays so he’s been there since 2pm and I won’t even see my eldest until the morning and saw him last this morning. I just feel like a shit mum and that I should have spent some quality time with my youngest rather than feeling stressed about all the stuff I had to do