I have many things to be grateful for.
A 25 inch waist
£80k salary at my dream job
A negligible mortgage
My youth
What I don't have:
A hug every night from my dead boyfriend
When we were together we were poor, both on minimum wage and I was paying 7% interest on my mortgage. Plus, I was heavy, but we were so infectiously happy and buzzing with love.
None of these things matter without him.
I would trade all these things for him back
My efforts to replace him over the last few years have failed. You would think a pleasant-looking young woman would have an easy time but these dating apps are absolute fucking carnage, they're all perverts
Not really looking for practical advice just offering my perspective to partnered MNetters who have a hard time financially: grass ain't always greener.