Is this the end of the road for my mental health with the NHS?

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Started having a low, tearful mood with instrusive thoughts in my early teens. Was with CAMHS(?). My mother got the gp and then a psychiatrist come to my house at 18. I didn't have any friends and never left my bedroom. They told me I was anxious and had depression. Over the last 15 years I had gone through 5 antidepressants at a variety of doses. I have had three sessions of CBT including high intensity. I have been taken on two trips to a&e for suicidal ideation. I have seen multiple GPs over and over.

I have had severe social anxiety, low mood, fatigue, emptiness, numbness, lack of joy/pleasure etc etc for basically 20 years. I do all the right things that are meant to make me feel better, but they don't.

Is there anything else the NHS is supposed to be offering me but aren't for whatever reason, or is this it?

Also, my NHS app has me down as 'mild anxiety disorder and depressive symptoms', which feels devastating because what I have been through does not feel mild.

I spent 35 years being put on one antidepressant after another , nothing helped me .
I've had god knows how many NHS CBT and counselling.. nothing helped me
Diagnosed autistic and ADHD ,as I said up thread .
Anxiety has been the main problem..it's ruining my life ,I've done so many threads on here asking for advice, similar to yours op ..
And 4 weeks ago I started on ADHD medication..and bizarrely it's massively helped with the anxiety,I totally wasn't expecting that.
I can function
,I've walked the dogs every day since I went on medication, having not walked them in 3 years ( husband did it),
It's not a massive difference, the meds ,but it's making enough of a difference for it to be worth being on them .
Plus a lot of what I thought was autism is actually ADHD .
I'm hoping the medication will eventually enable me to read all the books on autism and ADHD I've collected but can't read ..( attention span ,can't remember what I'm reading)
These ADHD meds have been the biggest help to me so far

Hey OP -
just my thoughts -
GP won’t have referred to secondary care as they have your difficulties framed as mild
but you have very longstanding / chronic mental illness, GP has clearly not had success with the medication they can prescribe and the therapy services you’ve had under primary care have not been helpful -
do they have mental health facilitators / practitioners at your surgery ?? They have links with the secondary care teams -

with ASD, you are likely to need therapy adapted for your needs, and that can be hard to find -
many areas have means tested or free community mental health support services
what area are u in ???

I was going to say that. Or the Oxford ketamine trial if they are still running it.