Depression sucks so much

[heidi696]

I’m so sad and depressed and fed up and I bloody hate feeling like this. Whatever I do- whatever I put in place it seems I have to go through this every few weeks. A few good weeks and then bam out of nowhere it lands on me. I’m on anti depressants which do help with the massive highs and lows. But this low level depression that hits me is the pits. All day today and yesterday I’ve been trying to shake it off. Long baths , walks, setting a timer and doing some decluttering, all the things that normally bring me joy are just grey. Life is grey. Everything is so much effort. Washed my hair today - what a mental battle that was. I wish I could go to sleep and wake up ok. Can anyone else relate. It will pass. I know that but it’s so hard. So many negative thoughts.

I currently only manage to shower every 7-10 days, don't brush my teeth regularly, haven't set foot outside the house in 2026, live like a hoarder with no motivation to do anything, even watch shows as no concentration. Been like this for over 20 years thanks to severe OCD with frequent bouts of depression, plus ptsd.
I sympathise, its shit and it's bloody hard, and i'm proud of you for every little thing you do manage.

Any chance it is hormone related on where you are in your cycle? Mine isn't as i don't have one but it can be a factor.

No I’m well into menopause now and am on hrt. Poor you that sounds so rotten. I’m sorry xxx

It is so, so hard. The depth of how muffled life becomes, how drab and feels utterly pointless.
I have been in therapy for over 2 years and that has become a way of life, like a permanent staff member for my personal mental health. It helps.
As you say, this will pass in time. I’m just sorry you’re wading through it at the moment 💚

It does. It really really does. But just so you know, you are not alone.

It really is. In my opinion, it’s exhaustion. We can keep up the good habits and patterns for so long, then just run out of determination. Bang. Feel crap. Slowly pick yourself up again…

I could have written this OP. Sorry you’re feeling so crap, it really does suck. I’ve had depression on and off since my teens. I’m on anti depressants and HRT but still feel really low a good percentage of the time. I look at everyone else, out and about, seeming so carefree, enjoying the sunshine, while I seem to have this permanent dark cloud over my head.

Feeling like this myself at the moment. I’ve lost a few friendships and it’s had a terrible effect on me. Awaiting therapy, but I can’t stop ruminating and it’s led to depression. Feeling very low and joyless. I keep taking myself out for walks but don’t feel happy and feel full of dread. I fear I’m pushing people away.
Sorry for all of us who are experiencing this x