Advice on how to cheer the f*ck up a bit

[Lauuxza]

Its my birthday next week. I'm still under 30. Married with 2 kids 4 and 2. So I dont know i feel a lot older haha!

I've always been a bit weird about my birthday. When I got to being a teen I just got depressed and shielded in. I had a tough time as a teen with an eating disorder and depression, I've been diagnosed with aspergers and ADHD (diagnosed in february) as an adult so I'm still trying to get clarity on all of this but it all ties into a lot of why I've felt so odd one out and misunderstood all my life.

I want to be a bit more perky as my kids love birthdays. My just turned 4yo loves birthdays and loves his , his 'party' (family and friends come round a low key one) an outing his presents decorations cake etc. He is more excited than me!!

I just hate my birthday a bit and have odd feelings towards it. This week I have a day annual leave while the kids are in nursery. I took it to take some time to whisk through life admin and booked myself a tattoo (only small i like small ones but have a few) while writing my to do list , for that day I wrote get tattoo,(appt first thing) then my jobs i need to do. Then wrote get my favourite Starbucks drink and a nice tea to have

I felt odd but I reminded myself I shouldn't be so serious maybe? And should do little things I like for my birthday. I'm 26 and just kind of write myself off a bit. Now my youngest has turned 2 I feel like im realising I'm in a bit of an identity crisis and I want to snap out a bit along with being a bit miserable

Wait till you're 30. I cried all day. It helps if you get nice presents, I hope your partner will arrange that from himself and the children. Honestly though you're so young, you have noting to worry about with your birthday. Or is it something else ?

Op, I also have ASD and dislike my birthday - I think because it puts attention on us that we’d otherwise avoid? I also feel like there is a social pressure around birthdays, and perhaps some judgement on what we chose to do (‘Oh, you just went to Starbucks on your birthday?’).
It’s also a day where routines may be altered which also makes me feel unsettled.

Aww - your lads enthusiasm sounds a bit infectious! 💕

I have an odd relationship with my birthday too.. So I think celebrate / ignore on your own terms. I do - notable editions include free flow brunch then karaoke, the kids party bags (for grown ups) in the pub, and the one where I ordered too much kfc and did a Disney film marathon all by myself….

All were excellent as they were all what I wanted to do! enjoy 🎂