Struggling to take care of kids

[Needuradvice]

Evening all,

bit of a vulnerable post but I need some advice from people I don’t know. I turned 30 earlier this year and I was kind of hoping it was going to be a fresh start. I was diagnosed with ADHD & PMDD last year. My whole life has been so up and down. I’ve always managed to bag really great jobs with brilliant salaries. I eventually hit burnout then walk away. I’m married with 3 kids my relationship with hubby isn’t great. But it is mainly myself to blame.

My recent PMDD episode has been difficult to come back from. I am pretty much possessed for two weeks it feels like someone is taking over my body. I am snappy abusive horrible nasty and suicidal.

Once the episode is over I come back to reality and I’m full of guilt and shame and a relationship for me to repair with hubby.

My kids have started to notice I lie down on the sofa a lot and I’m always tired. I’m struggling to give them the care that they deserve. Everything i do is kind of the bare minimum! Hubby does more than enough so I can’t burden him anymore than I do.

Im on all the meds but nothing works. The Gp’s don’t seem to take my conditions seriously enough. I’m not sure how much longer I can keep fighting on.

Sorry you have had such a tough time. Is it possible to change doctors and hopefully get some different treatment?
Please talk to a professional if you are feeling suicidal.

@Needuradvice have you gone private? I think you should. You’ll get the help you need.

Is part time working an option? You might be able to front load some work on your more emergetoc weeks?

You have my full sympathies OP. I, too, suffer from PMDD and it is hard for people to appreciate how debilitating it is without first-hand experience. I spend half of every month suffering from it and the other half of the month feeling guilt and shame about how I behaved during my luteal phase.

All I can say it is that is important to realise that it is like a disability and there is no shame in adjusting your life accordingly. I work part time and barely do any socialising in the week leading up to my period. During that week, I hide in my bedroom a lot, so that I don’t unleash rage on my family. Is this ideal? No. But it is a reality of PMDD.

i have found medication helpful, but it definitely doesn’t resolve things completely. Which meds have you been prescribed?