To feel like I’m in a permanent state of stuck

[4andnotcounting]

What’s wrong with me? Because there must be something wrong or something amiss.

To cut a very long story short-
I have been talk therapy/ counselling
short courses (to change thinking and life)
been to the drs
spoken to more people than I care to admit IRL and online about my life and yet I still am in this state of stuck.
I will either do nothing but whinge, or take few steps forward and stop, or take steps forward and regress.
i write plans, i make lists, i do things bit by bit , but then it all ends up as nothing.
i found an old handset/ phone and it had old WhatsApp messages on and it shocked snd saddened me the way I feel now I felt like that 10 years ago! I’m saying the same things but nothing is changing. I’m getting older and I have no progressed in anything.

I am talking about my life including my relationship.

eg I have had problems from the word go with my dh and I have split twice, recently started the divorce online but stuck and not moving forward with it. He takes the utter piss with me and I haven’t got any fight left in me. I am trying to improve my health to give me the strength to sort these two major problems out but something is keeping me stuck.

my home makes me infinitely miserable mainly because we have outgrown it along time ago. The mad thing is I have the means to move (not necessarily the place we need to move to, but would be a bit better than what we are in now) but I can’t seem to be able to! I end up in a state of stuck.

there are other things, but these are making me miserable.

(not complaining about this but just giving you
a view of what sort of person I am)
I am 42 and I have never been on holiday. Day trips yes, holiday , no. I don’t live like a normal person. I want to change and I can’t .

it feels like being paralysed. There is literally no other way to explain it.

20 years!!! This isn’t normal. I’m not normal.
what is wrong with me I can’t continue I can’t do it anymore what is wrong with me. I have kids otherwise I would just runaway and start again but I can’t even do that .

I feel beyond help.

no one can change my life but me but why can’t I do it????

Burnout, after a long period of unmanaged neurodivergence?

I feel a lot like you in many ways for the last 5 years, but not as extreme. Chat gpt tells me
its burnout/ chronic overwhelm! Not sure what the solution is.

It's helpful to have some enlightenments as to what is wrong...
How about requesting some solutions too, in order to help with this?

Yeah got those too. It’s a lot about small steps moving forward, taking them to rest, reframing how you see things. Quite tricky to take action when the feeling is an inability to take action!

If I labelled it as anything I would say burnout. I am starting to think maybe I am neurodivergent. If I knew what then I could look into managing it better.

i have always found social situations draining and i have to remove myself from very noisy environments

I think i might be nutritionally deficient if anyone can suggest a good all round supplement . I feel ill most
of the time but my bloods comeback “normal” other than iron being a bit low.

I have appropriated your phrase as it describes me perfectly. 🙂 I can't offer any advice because even when I work out all the reasons for my procrastinating I still struggle to tip myself into doing mode. Sunlight and fresh air help but often I end up having a cup of tea and telling myself I'll do it tomorrow.

Iron a ‘bit low’ can cause symptoms of brain fog, feeling tired/exhaustion and feelings of low mood/depression.
You need a supplement - taken with vitamins c. Take it daily for at least 3 months and then re check your iron levels.

@Ritaskitchen ive found taking iron as lessened my symptoms, mag glycinate has reduced my anxiety ; and so this is why I think it might be linked or exacerbated by nutritional deficiencies (I had hypothyroidism)

this feeling of stuck feels like a curse. I question if there is any point in living - because I don’t. Not because I don’t want to- it’s because I can’t

Have hypo not had