To sometimes want to end my 17-year long relationship with my husband.
When he is happy, everything is wonderful. He is a good husband in the sense that he is:
- Loyal
- Provides (I work too; we're both self-employed, but he pays the major bills)
- Does his fair share of childcare
- Supports me
- When we have arguments, he is never abusive or swears at me
However,
For many years of our relationship, he has had severe mood changes. He can become very down and hyper-focused on work for 14 hours a day, etc. He has recently been in one of these moods since lunchtime on Mother's Day. Our 10-year-old daughter had an emotional meltdown, which caused him to have a day-long headache, during which he spent the day not talking and walking two metres ahead of us when we went out.
These are frequent, and our children have noticed that he has moody episodes.
I've tried talking to him about it, but he insists that nothing can change in his life in order for him to feel less stressed.
He was an only child to a single mother was very similar she had these moods and would fall out with everyone she knew. I wonder if its some sort of hereditary mental disorder.
A few years ago we had money issues after his construction firm collapsed and he was suicidal. He got through it with therapy, Microdosing and meditation.
Sometimes my marriage to him feels so lonely, and I think that when our daughter is older, I will leave. I'm so jealous when I see happy family men out making their families smile and having a laugh with them .