Feeling overwhelmed

[Homeimprovement22]

I have a day off today and I need to get going but I just feel like I have no motivation. I bought my first house 2 years ago and I've struggled so much to make decisions about decorating it. It probably sounds stupid to most but I feel crippled by indecision. I feel so lucky to own my own house. No partner so every decision, arrangement, payment etc is mine. I've spent months trying to decide between engineered wood or LVT for the living room and porch, just been quoted 2 grand. Feels like a lot of money. Urgh I know this is a nice thing to be able to do I think just anxiety and self doubt is ruining it. So worried about making the wrong decision and hating it. Also had 3 grand stolen from me by someone I paid to do my bathroom and feel very worried now about tradesmen. Already on long term meds for anxiety and have had lots of counselling though on a counselling break currently.

I find the responsibilities of owning a house really stressful OP.

I can usually visualise what I want done but I have such difficulty finding a tradesman who is willing to do the job or who will do the job to a reasonable standard that these days I only get really, really necessary stuff done.

I totally sympathise with you being wary after you were ripped off by the bathroom installer. I've had battles in the past over substandard bathroom installation, cowboy kitchen installer, and substandard double glazing at a previous address. And a cowboy roofer and a substandard kitchen at this address. I'm an older woman who lives alone and I honestly believe tradesmen see me as easy game for getting away with poor work they wouldn't dare do for a man.

And like you I suffer from severe anxiety.

Sorry I don't have any helpful suggestions but I do offer my sympathy.

I'm so sorry you've had bad experiences too. Agree that they target women on their own. I dont think that plumber would've dared steal 3 grand from me if I'd had a big bloke stood next to me when he came round to measure up. Now having a lengthy battle with small claims court when all I wanted was a nice bathroom. I dont know how he sleeps at night.

Flooring is so expensive isn’t it? Unless you are a super sensitive visual person , you have almost certainly chosen something that you won’t hate - how much love is anyone’s guess

and we took 2 years to choose the colour scheme for the living room - keep most of the house very neutral !

why not take a day to look at what you have achieved so far , no need to make any choices. What has worked , what didn’t , what can you learn ( some failures really don’t matter much in the grand scheme )

Oh and do you know a rent a man? I have always had good male friends to step in and play the other half. Sad but effective. Works for trips to doctors too . Ghastly stupid situation but you might as well play it