Stopped taking the pill and feel like I need sectioned

[leopardprintpants]

Wise women of mumsnet I need your help.

In January I stopped taking the mini pill after almost a decade (with no periods) the main reasons for stopping were: low libido, feeling numb emotionally, concerns as I am mid 30’s that I could be approaching peri-meno’ without knowing, I wanted to feel my feelings etc.

Well.. I am fucking feeling those fucking feelings.

I feel like I’m having a psychotic break. I am crying and lashing out over trauma experienced 20ish years ago which hasn’t been an issue once while on the pill.

I am angry, I am overly emotional, I am over reacting, I am brutally honest, I am a worse version of who I used to be. Things which used to be water off a ducks back are now hills I want to and feel I need to die on.

Is this the real, authentic me? Do I need to go back on the pill as the numbness was much more pleasant for me and everyone around me? Do I ride out the first 3 months and things will settle?

Please help me.. I’m going to end up divorced with children who don’t want to be anywhere near me if this behaviour continues.

Posting on AIBU because this is where the honesty is..

Well I did have a psychotic break and it’s not anything like you describe so that’s good news I suppose 😂

Yeah I had a very similar reaction and went back on. I had about 9 months of unhinged emotional behaviour and when I made the connection as to what it was I went back on the pill and was fine again.
no advice really. I’m 36 and considering ttc now and im a bit worried about coming off again!

It will take a few months for your hormones to find their equilibrium, so I'd say just give it time. You'll come out of the other side soon.

When I gave up the pill loads of my hair fell out! But it is just a backlash against the differing levels of hormones in your body. Now I'd never go back on hormonal contraception. For me, it made my emotions 'dead' and I wasn't my true self. My tinfoil hat theory is The Pill is pushed onto women to keep them in a haze and make them more biddable!

As above

It's bad for your long term health, as far as I understand, to be on the pill. Periods have an tangible benefit for you cos you need hormones which have a role in your health. Look up impacts. Sounds like you need a very good therapist for a bit. This is probably stuff you need to work through eventually. Up to you but can you get the support for the emotions and hopefully it will soon blow over and leave you healthier and more connected to body and mind.

When I came off the pill (I was made to by a GP pushing outdated advice) I discovered I got awful headaches and PMDD with fatigue, it was to the extent I was genuinely worried about my job as I could barely function for two weeks out of four. They always say to try any hormone change for three months to get an idea of what's 'normal', unfortunately in my case it never settled down, I tried non hormonal methods for two years thinking that's all I was able to have. After getting some new advice and trialling different pills I'm now on a low oestrogen combined pill and it has helped so much. There seems to be so much variation as to how women respond to hormonal contraception, and whether they do better with or without it, that you just have to try what works for you. I would have loved to be 'natural' and I am cynical about how these drugs are prescribed to young women with very little thought or education about the side effects, but I learned that my 'natural' state was really difficult to live with!

What are the sources for this please @holdtheline11 ?

I came off the pill when TTC after being on it for 17 years. My good God. I was ready to murder my husband, I had 0 tolerance for any one at work, no filter, generally fuming my way through life.
Its been 7 years now and I'll never ever go back on it because I don't want to feel that way again.

Thankyou all.. I want to ride it out so so badly but I’m just unbearable to be around 😭😭

Yep I went straight back on. It's safe to take until menopause.

Go see GP

My dd is in a similar situation to you @leopardprintpants , but has been taken off Depo provera injections as she has some bone degradation shown on a dexa scan. She was on it as it stopped her periods which were incredibly heavy, and it helped with regulating her moods. She is terrified of going back to the same frame of mind as she was back then, which was very low. She has chronic pain too, so this on top is just too much. I really hope it isn't as bad as before, but her sisters are very painful (pcos) and I had to have a hysterectomy two years ago as I was seriously anaemic from very heavy periods.

I came off the mini-pill 3 weeks ago. I have a doctors appointment this afternoon. I cannot stop crying, I have anxiety to the highest degree. I have convinced myself I can feel a baby moving in my belly and i'm 20+ weeks pregnant. I feel depressed and miserable!

Update.. I’m 3 months on from stopping it and it’s the best thing I could have done! My hormones are all levelled out and I’m feeling so much more authentically me. If you’re considering it, do it and just ride out the WILD mood swings!