I’m a mum to a beautiful almost 3 year old and 6 month old and I love them with all of my heart, I’d take a bullet for them, there is no mountain I’d not attempt to move for them but my god, I feel like running away.
DD, almost 3, screams and shouts about everything recently. Dropped a crayon? Screams, blanket not on her right on the sofa? Screams, wants a snack? Screams, needs a wee or poo on the toilet? Screams. Despite not being a “shouty” household and explaining to her multiple times that she can calmly ask me or her Dad for help, the screaming continues. It’s going right through me and I'm seriously considering walking around with earphones in and music playing constantly to get away from it.
Then comes the food refusal. She used to eat fruit, veg, never been a great meat eater but loved salmon, smoked haddock etc now we are on a rotation of plain pasta and garlic bread or jacket potato’s and beans because that’s all she’ll eat. Used to love omelette, boiled eggs, toast for breakfast, nope “dont like it”. She lives on potatoes, pasta and yoghurt. Refuses all fruit and the only veg I can get into her is a corn on the cob and occasionally peas if the mood takes her.
She goes to pre school 3 days a week 9-3 just to give me a break, I feel guilty but I am so overstimulated and tired and worn down by the constant screaming and shouting for me. She’s not like it at nursery. She’ll even eat it or at least try whatever is for lunch there.
My 6 month old has been teething for 3 months, rosy cheeks, screaming, chewing, dribbling but no teeth yet. He’s had RSV twice since he’s been born and hospitalised twice despite me having the RSV vaccine during pregnancy. It doesn’t seem to have made a difference to how severe he’s had it. I’m worried sick as he’s not rolling, he hasn’t got great head control despite plenty of tummy time etc so I can’t even start weaning because he slumps when sat.
We run our own business, DH is out the house 7-7 5 days a week so every morning, nappy, bottle, school run, ballet lesson, bath, bedtime etc falls on me. I am EXHAUSTED. I don’t want to have sex, I don’t even want a conversation most days I’m utterly miserable I’m so tired that all I want to do when the kids finally go down is sit on the sofa and be silent. I’m sick of living like this.
Somebody please tell me it gets better, I’m losing
hope and my mental health is in tatters, my nerves are shot to pieces and I’m on edge constantly.