Dealing with betrayal

[TimeTraveller2718]

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I’ve been with my partner for most of my 20s and I’m now 28. We lived together and, until recently, I believed we had a very happy relationship. We were even talking about marriage kids and a future together.

earlier this year he became very unwell and ended up in hospital. For weeks we didn’t know what was wrong as doctors were running tests and couldn’t give answers. It was incredibly stressful and I was beside myself with worry.
Since then we found out he has a serious health condition caused by an STI. Although it can be cured. At that point he had to admit that he cheated on me and slept with someone else around 7-8 months ago.

I am completely broken. I’ve had to be tested and I’m currently waiting for my results, which is very anxiety-inducing. The relationship is over and I’ve moved back in with my family.
I’m struggling to cope with the shock of it all. I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, and I feel like my whole life has been pulled out from under me. I know that my life isn’t over, but emotionally it feels that way. He kept this from me for months, and acted completely normally, and I had absolutely no suspicion.

I feel devastated, betrayed and frightened about the future. I don’t know how I will ever be happy or trust someone again

I’m so sorry you’re going through this - what a horrible shock. You have done the right thing by being tested and leaving him. What an absolute bellend.

Go easy on yourself. Take it one step at a time. You’ve moved home - that is step 1. You’ve had your testing done - step 2. When your results come in, dealing with them (if there’s anything to deal with) is step 3. Then hopefully you can have some breathing space to come to terms with everything in your own time and decide on step 4. You’re still so young. Do you have friends around you? Perhaps you could book a girls trip to give you something to look forward to? Or take yourself off somewhere and get to know YOU again. I went to Thailand solo when I was in my mid to late 20s and it was the best trip I’ve ever taken. Time to just read, eat where and when I want, contemplate everything, and make plans for my future with no one else sticking their nose in.

You’ve got this. You will be ok