I don't know why I do, but I find that I feel lonely a lot of the time. I'm wondering if it is real though, or just in my head, a state of mind.
I have a very nice DH and lovely DC. We have always done a lot together, and even though my DC are teens and adult, we still go out a lot together. I do a lot with my DH, hobbies, fitness and just hanging out.
I have a very sociable job where I work with the public, and my work colleagues are very nice. I have a good few friends there. We don't go out together, but spend lunch together and talk about our lives and help each other out.
Outside of work I don't have a lot of friends. I have 2 very good friends. One lives 2 hours away, and we talk once a week. She is my closest friend, like a sister to me. The other lives in my town and we hang out once a week, or once every 2 weeks.
This is my social calendar this week:
Wed: going to a concert with my DC
Friday: Going out for dinner
Sat am: going for breakfast with a friend
When I look at the above I can see that I am very lucky. However, I still feel lonely. I did lose my mum as a teen and maybe this is the problem, that no matter how many people I am surrounded by, I just have a hole that can't be filled. I just look at other women and they are always going out with their mum and sisters and I can't do this and I have tried to meet other women to fill that gap, but it doesn't always turn out great!
AIBU and does anyone else feel like this?