Oh, I thought you said if the world was ending. In this case, I think that changes it for me. If it was just My last day to live, I would call my loved ones and just chat for maybe 20 minutes each and tell them I love them. Then I would ask my son to spend time with me for a little while. Maybe we would watch Doctor Who for an hour. And then I would just talk to him and give him all the last advice for life I could fit in. And give him a hug. Assuming he didn't know, I was about to die, he would probably wander back to his room after an hour or two, and I guess I would just be sitting on my couch.
So this would be like 5 pm max, and I'm not quite sure what I would do next. I think I would take a picture of myself, blowing a kiss, for my funeral- is that too cheesy ? Lol.
I would play with my cats for a whole hour and shower them with pets and kisses and yogurts. So now it's six o' clock. I would pray to Jesus and god for fifteen minutes. And then I would pray to my grandmother. Ask her to meet me there.
I would have to leave the house at this point, because I wouldn't want my son to find my body. I couldn't do that to him. Maybe I would go and see my mum, and tell her the truth. That I was going to die in a few hours. Maybe not. Maybe kinder, not to.
I would then go quickly to my nieces and then walk down to my older sister's house. I would tell her I was sorry things have been stained and that I wish I could have fixed things. I would write my estranged little sister a letter and put it in the postbox. Text my two brothers. Say bye to my dad in anon obvious way. Something like, see you soon. Lol.
Hahahaha. But then what do you do ? If you don't want your family to find you ? Perhaps I could ask for a specific taxi drivers whose company I enjoy. Maybe I could ask him for a favour and could I die in his car please ? Lol. Maybe, fuck it just get high in the taxi, some codeine or something, to kill the time. Take my mind off it !
I might ask the taxi driver to sing with me for a bit.
Oh and one more thing- tell all you lovely ladies that although this place can be a sort of toxic hell at times- bear with me- I appreciate the invaluable support you guys have given me over the years, and I love you all :)
God, I've been up all night and writing this all out now reading it back I'm wondering if I've gone slightly mad...