I feel very low right now, had another awful weekend. I really didn’t want to fight this weekend and have a nice time for the kids but he winds me up so much. I’ve spent entire day in bed just getting up to make kids food, take them swimming then going back to bed. I don’t know how to face going into work in the morning but I will otherwise I will be here with him as he WFH.
The argument literally was over nothing. Last night about 8pm I got the kids to bed and thought I’d try working on our relationship so I told him to pick anything from our list on Disney / Netflix and we can watch. Came down and he said how about aliens to which I innocently replied haven’t you already watched that? (When u go in Disney it comes up as “continue watching” so I presumed he started watching it as I haven’t. He exploded saying why would he suggest it if he had already watched. It sounds innocent written down but the contempt and anger in his voice was there. I walked out and went to get water and when I came back 5 seconds later he started again saying I don’t really want to get along and why would I say he’s watched it when he hasn’t. I told him it’s not really that much of a big deal and he could just have said he hasn’t. He continued shouting and at this point I felt myself get dysregulated and unable to control my emotions and I threw a cushion at him to which he over reacted and started screaming really loudly!
He woke the kids up and youngest came downstairs. I took youngest upstairs and slept in his bed. I didn’t sleep well as he’s got a toddler bed and I was very uncomfortable. DH is giving me silent treatment and has gone out without telling me where. I wish I hadn’t said anything I wish I could turn back time and just say “sounds good” to when he suggested the tv programme.