And I know it’s my fault. I had plenty of men to choose from in my twenties and early thirties. Instead I ended up with a very dysfunctional man and had a child with him. She’s now 4 and I’m 38. I’ve been single pretty much since she was born.
I’d love another child but it feels hopeless now. I’m not as attractive as I was (by a long way). There’s less men who are decent as they’re married! Mostly anyway. I never meet anyone anyway.
Everyone I went to school or uni with that I still know of is or has been married. Even divorced and married again! I can’t find anyone. It’s odd as I’ve almost become resigned to it but I also feel so sad my life is not what I’d hoped. I’m not particularly needy and I’m not desperate but I do enjoy relationships. I guess I’m struggling with how to accept a life alone?