I spent the majority of 2025 alone, quite literally, outside of the relationship I have with my mom. I reached out to close ones for support, saying "I need help" and "I am depressed", but no one except for my mom took me seriously or tried being there for me. No one was there for me while I dealt with clinical depression... And I am 100% okay with that fact. I do not hold any ill feelings towards anyone! It was an eye opener, after the grief passed, that no one I had invested so much love and energy into was there for me. It was as if I had put way more value into the relationships I had than any of the other people involved. This was both romantic and non.
Now in 2026, I really don't care to have a relationship outside of the one I have with my mom. I am pleasant around everyone, I treat everyone with kindness and respect, I say hi to people and I am friendly, but I just don't want to invest in relationships only to be the one discarded later. I want to go through that type of trauma again 🤕.
Has anyone experienced anything like this before?😥I wish I could see myself being happy for the rest of the year! But I genuinely don't ðŸ˜