To hate the world and wish I could be on my own

[no57]

It's kind of ironic that I'm asking for advice here, but has anyone else ever felt this way? I never use to be like this, but over the past year, I've turned into a very angry and negative person. Even the tiniest things can set me off, and I end up losing my temper with people. I've noticed that I'm pretty rude to others now. I see most people (even family and friends) as very selfish and self absorbed. I've stopped reaching out or spending time with anyone. Honestly, if I had all the money in the world, I'd probably isolate myself from everyone, except for my mum. Sometimes I just wish I could escape to a deserted island. I’m 28 and it fills me with dread knowing I’ll have to deal with people for the next 40 years

You need to find out the underlying cause.

Sounds like you need some me time and chill out.

Sounds like PTSD / unresolved trauma. I had boiling rage all through my 20s due to an abusive childhood. I finally went NC and worked on rebuilding my life. I won’t lie, it took years and years to overcome the trauma - but you owe it to yourself to begin the journey. Like you say, you can’t go through another 40 years like this.

Or, rather than needing to be ‘diagnosed’ with anything, you’re just having a perfectly reasonable reaction to the shit show continually unfolding around us. And yes, of course most people are inherently selfish. It is human nature to be so.

I like the Virginia Woolf quote when I feel like this. “No need to hurry, no need to sparkle, no need to be anybody but oneself.”

Then I try to get outside for a long walk.