Early 40s and spent my entire life skinny-fat, eg a size 8-10 but rolls of flab everywhere. I absolutely hated exercise and wouldn't do anything beyond a walk. When I say I hated it, I would feel like throwing up, panic, cry, feel ashamed and generally feel lots of very negative emotions about myself. I was very uncoordinated, clumsy, weak, and always had a sense that my body had never fully calibrated with my inner being (if that makes sense!).
So anyway, something changed last year and I decided that I had to take the bull by the horns and stop this. I bought a smart watch and aimed for 10k steps a day. This became addictive!
Then I got myself a set of 1.5kg dumbells and did a few Caroline Girvan videos. It almost felt like she was my friend and she wasn't judging me (I know, this sounds nuts!!!) And was doing it 4 times a week for around 2 months. I moved from 1.5kg weights to 3kg over 2 months and felt like I was much stronger in my day to day life. The only thing was, i could only work out for 20 minutes. Once I started feeling sick or headachy, I stopped. I knew if I kept going I would never do it again but if I stopped, I would be back to it a day or two later.
I also adopted new habits of 'snack' sized exercises; taking the stairs, standing when I could sit, doing standing core exercises waiting for the bus, squats as the bath ran etc.
Working mum life took over and the regime stopped for around 4 or 5 months. Tonight I tried again after that break And to my delight I could use the 5kg dumbells for half the workout, 3 for the other. Again, I got to 20 minute and had to stop as i felt sick and headachey. I want to do it again soon and know I wont if I push through while feeling unwell.
So, aibu to stick to 20 minute workouts so long as i am being really mindful of my moves, challenging myself the entire 20 minutes and lifting as heavy as I can, progressively challenging myself in that way? And, if so, will I tone up at all or does that take hours?
I should assume that im a migraine sufferer and never push through anything where I feel im at risk of being wiped out for 2 days.