I hate my job so much

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I actually hate my job so much. It is the most boring mundane job but I’m been in the same sector for almost 30 years so don’t want to lose my pension etc. I travel 45 minutes there every morning and 45 minutes back and it actually drains me even though that isn’t a huge commute. It is a job I could very easily do at home but there is this mentality in our office that we really shouldn’t be doing more than 1 day at home every week! I’m drained and I dread Sunday nights cause of work next morning. I’m bloody 50 years of age, my kids are reared and I don’t want to be feeling like this. Don’t know what I’m looking for here ladies just want to rant or maybe someone can offer some advice. I just think I’m a bit long on the tooth and in the job too long for some young one to be telling me what I can and can’t do.

Welcome to peri / menopause!
everything and everyone is going to severely piss you off!

Does it require any mental energy really?
Could you try to reframe it as ‘this is the simple thing I do to be able to afford to do the things I like to do?’

Not wanting to wish your life away, but are you able to take early retirement in your mid-fifties? I was in the same boat as you and retired at 60 last year. I could of taken my pension at 55 but held on until I was 60.

Can you switch to another firm? Pension will still be yours, just deferred and you can start another.

Can you take a secondment?

Life's too short to spend a lot of time doing shit you don't want to do.

Rant away. I’m listening, have been there, done that, ticking all you’ve written. It’s a pain, isn’t it?
What helped me was to minimise the focus on employment so I’d get up super early to do something I wanted to do (swim at 6am) then mentally glide into work as an afterthought, as a second best. I put myself and my interests first to best start my days. It put me in a better mindset to ignore the irritations (and I was post, not peri). That Sunday evening dread, which many feel, lessened.
You’re not alone and you have my sympathy.

You can quit