Bit of a self pitying moan tonight. Just feel very down. I have very little support in life. No family except my mum who is an alcoholic and unreliable. She hasn’t always been this way and it really hurts to see how far her mental health and our relationship has fallen. I love her but have had to take a step back for my own sanity. I can’t rely on her.
My dh is a good man in theory. He provides but I don’t feel like he really gives me the emotional support and connection I always need. He’s not particularly hands on with dc and while I know he loves them, the vast majority of everyday parenting falls on me. He wouldn’t think to take them out and do stuff with them, but that’s just his personality in general.
I quite often think to myself if I died what would happen to my dc. They’d have Dh but he has no family support and nor do I. We have a decent circle of friends but they all have their own lives, kids and responsibilities.
I see friends and colleagues who have so much family support from their own parents/siblings, in laws and extended families. I just feel very alone. My dc are my absolute priority in life and all I want to do is get them to an age where they are self sufficient and ideally settled down with their own families. But gosh it’s hard sometimes to carry everything on your own.