I have young DC 4 & 1 and only started earning a good wage over the last 2 years. DH earns but is very conservative with his money and doesn't spends much on himself. He is self employed as well as sometimes he can be out of contract for months, so likes to save and put money in pension.
We both grew up poor, no holidays almost all of our adult lives. I always dreamt of going off on holidays to beautiful places and admiring natural beauty. For Christmas break, I booked trip to Canary Islands and had a fab time there but kids got some cold and little one had eczema flare up in the sun etc. Now, we have been back for a week and baby who's 14 months old has been diagnosed with ear infections and on antibiotics. Doctor thinks it's a mix of viral and air travel causing ear pressure leading to infection. I am feeling so guilty for her eczema and now this ear infection.
I feel so guilty that I was selfish to book this holiday with my little one and I overlooked her health over my pleasure. I feel like I want to stay home and not go on any holidays now until she's older like 5-6. Though I can't avoid all air travel because extended family lives overseas and we will have to go at least once every 2 years.