I am very close to resigning from my job, as I don’t know how much more I can take of being pulled in every direction.
I adore my life, I have 3 wonderful children, the youngest being 8 months. I’ve worked hard for my career, and have done well in all my roles.
But I am struggling and tonight it’s all come to a head. My baby doesn’t sleep in the day (or night) and everything has got on top of me. My DH is amazing and is very supportive and pulls his weight massively.
but he’s just entered a new job as he was made redundant in the summer. I went back to work 4 weeks ago ( went back early because of the redundancy), so entering my 5th week, and every week one child has been unwell or there have been childcare issues. I have to travel into the office tomorrow and now my baby is showing signs of a rising temp (still below 38 but rising). She’s at nursery but obviously this will be the 5th week I will likely have to go and pick a child up if her temp hasn’t risen overnight. I have back-to-back meetings all day and I cancelled them from last week when my son was poorly and I had to go and get him!
they haven’t been unwell for 9 months that I’ve been off and I just feel like I am being the crappest mum, wife and employee at the moment. Long term, I can’t do my job anyway as they are implementing changes and I won’t be able to travel more than once a week, but there is only so much I feel I can take of this right now.
obviously my children will always be my priority, that goes without saying. But it doesn’t take the pressure away.
I have a side - hustle where, if I really put time and effort in would allow me to get by while looking for a more local job but all I want to do tonight is resign. ☹️ I know it won’t help immediately as I have a notice period, but what else can I do! I don’t want to go off sick as I’ve got big project work and my ethos isn’t just to drop that, but I can’t do it all.
i am very tied and emotional, so need somebody with a bit of sanity to lend a friendly hand 🫂 thank you!