There’s nothing at all to judge! This is a very private for you, nobody needs to know, and you can deal with it swiftly and easily, with no earthly reason for self-recrimination.
Act fast though, I urge you. The more time you leave, the more room in your head there will be for perfectly useless and bogus cares and doubts, and by any standards, you've no reason to doubt your decision here.
I had a surgical abortion (at 12 or 13 weeks) forty years ago.
Very simple, very little pain or bleeding afterwards, and I’ve never had one second’s regret. So if that’s the option offered, do not fear it one bit. Far more like a visit to the dentist than any kind of surgical operation. It’s just women’s healthcare, basic and ancient.
Please don’t be affected by any propaganda that may come your way about women’s regrets about aborting.It’s just seeking to undermine your choice and your autonomy, and you are far more likely never to think about the termination with anything but gratitude that the option exists.
You'll be grand, on one condition. That should the man in question chase you up about this at all, you refuse absolutely to engage. Not one word!
I think it’s fair to say that in circs such as yours right now, you have behind you a great sisterhood stretching back many hundreds of generations, all of whom would be wishing you well and supporting you. It’s a necessary and wise decision, and you are not alone. x