So since becoming a mum 18 months ago I have developed extremely thin skin. Whenever I hear of a child suffering or being abused I genuinely start to feel unwell and get lightheaded. I was online when I saw a very upsetting article about a child abuse ring (there was a links at the bottom of an article that I was reading about felt!). I ended up reading it just to reassure myself that they were now safe
To be honest I broke down in hysterics and got extremely shaky. I donate to charities to alleviate my guilt but I still feel sick to my stomach.
Of course stories like this would upset me before but now the emotions are SO visceral. I genuinely feel sicked and panicked at the idea of a child suffering.
Before I get accused of being performative I keep these intense emotions to myself and only my husband has really seen me get upset in this way.
What can I do??
This is mental and emotional torture
i do my best to avoid the news etc but I genuinely can’t avoid everything. The ads to donate to starving children In Gaza have haunted me.
i get quite dark thoughts like please God send an asteroid so their suffering would be over