i was supposed to have a baby sitter today so I could go to work and she told me just few minutes before she couldn’t come to me for another hour and was a bit rude and huffy so I said yeah that’s fine. Half an hour passes and she then says she broke down near where I live and won’t be able to come. I haven’t booked a baby sitter in years and needed to work today and now cannot. I got hold of Family and they said it’s last minute and won’t come until 1 pm which I understand.
I also only work 10 hours a week and I have already been late or off three times now in 6 months. This is a newish job. I feel panicky even though my supervisor managed to get hold of me ( I couldn’t get hold of work) I was previously relying on my ex for childcare but due to DV, I’m not anymore. I just feel like my life’s imploding at the moment with everything going on with police involvement, children’s services etc because of DV with my ex.