I was made redundant in 2023. Since then I have freelanced which is bloody hard work and for a year or so I have worked for a company doing something that is related to my profession in a sense, but not what I want to do at all. It's poorly paid but I also find it so tedious and boring and am itching to get back to doing what I love.
It isn't fantastically paid, or especially impressive but what I want to do and am trained/qualified in is quite niche, and since I were made redundant I have never found anything remotely like it advertised.
Not seen one thing like it, that is until 2 weeks ago-of course I got my application in. I assumed I hadn't been selected as it has been quite a long time but just this morning they replied inviting me to interview.
I am so, so nervous about this. Because opportunities are so few and far between-I feel like I absolutely HAVE to get this job. It's over 10k more than I am on now which would rid me of financial worries, but not only that, I'd feel like a 'real person' again in that I'd be back doing what I trained for, what I love to do, and I wouldn't spend every day feeling like a glorified admin assistant-I know I am being facetious but that is genuinely how I feel about this job. The one I have now makes me feel brain-dead and doesn't motivate or fulfil me at all.
My brain keeps trying to convince me that because I want the job so much, that I probably won't get it! It's ideal for me, remote (which I need) good hours, decent pay. I feel like I absolutely must think positive but, although I generally interview well and do not get nervous about the process, for this one I very much am nervous! And I've had interviews that didn't go well where I've got the job, ones I thought did go well where I haven't, sometimes you just don't know?
Any advice or shared experiences welcome!