I know I will get judged for this but I’m so scared for my future I lost my dad to suicide last year he was my best friend my world my happiness. I then lost my grandad and aunty too so that’s all of my dads family gone I only have my mum left when she goes I have no family left what so ever no friends no body I’m shy hardly ever make any friends as I feel maybe I have learning difficulties and I have a 5 year old son when he grows up and moves out I will be alone what will be the point in going to work to keep myself alive for what? I won’t find a partner as do not want a step dad in my child’s life incase my child does not like him or other reasons rather my whole attention on my child instead of dividing my attention to a man and my child. I wouldn’t find a man anyway as I’m not attractive only ever had one boyfriend lol. I’m 29 and worried for my future I just don’t see the point once my son grows up and moves out living in the family home with all those happy memories to being by myself what will I even do :( my whole life is my child I’m just so sad right now