I'll try and make this short. I've been through a lot. Was bullied most of my school years because of how I looked. For a while I was homeschooled due to bullying. On top of that my father was abusive to me and mum and I had severe epilepsy. When I was 11 I started secondary school (a PRU) and immediately began getting bullied there too. I remember having this awful day one day and a whole group of other girls began bullying and humiliating me. I felt like I wanted to disappear. Then he showed up. I feel so bad for not remembering his name, but I remember his face vividly. He chased the girls off and we instantly befriended one another. It was almost like something out of of a Disney film. We became friends and I was free from bullying as long as he was there.
He was older than me so after the school year finished, he was gone. I felt empty, and I started to get bullied again, some of that bullying still causing issues in my life now. I did get some more friends in sixth form, but then I became chronically ill for many years, my diagnosis being significantly delayed from doctors not taking me seriously until SHTF and they pretty much abandoned me. Right now I just feel lonely. The only family I have are my stepdad, my mum who isn't well, my brother and my 14 year old cat. I've just been asked to get into a program to help get me some new friends and get my confidence back. The illness affected my memory significantly, I don't remember the years I was ill. Seems more like a few months and I'm still coming to terms with the lost time.
Whenever I feel sad like this, sometimes I think to myself "what would HE say/do?" the adult version of him. He seemed like the person who wouldn't take anything from anyone. I don't know if it was because of how young I was or what but he had a lasting effect on me. I remember the music he liked to listen to. I listen to it sometimes and it instantly calms me down, to me it almost sounds like a lullaby. But it also makes me feel sad because I hope he's doing alright himself and I hope he's still alive. The school I went to was a PRU and it was for people with things like health conditions, learning differences or behavioural problems. I don't think it gave out yearbooks and it closed down years ago so I don't even have any leads.