I wasn't deliberately being mean. And he only said I was immediately afterwards.
I've self injected medication for years - about a decade ago, everything was switched to pen injectors and depending upon the volume of medication, gauge of needles, angle of delivery, duration and pressure required, they go from barely felt it to worse than a wasp sting, and my newest medication is more of a mutant killer hornet animated by Ray Harryhausen.
I mentioned that these ones are surprisingly unpleasant at my most recent appointment and amazingly, today's delivery came with the medications in a sort of syringe instead. From my point of view, a bit more control, less pain, same meds - result.
Once I'd taken the needle cap off to see something about half an inch long, pinged it in at 45 degrees then fumbled a bit to get the plunger down nice and steadily, I heard a noise and look up to see DP going all wobbly and propping himself up against the sideboard.
Apparently I wasn't being very nice to him to sit there, needle still very visibly inserted and start laughing at him. I was then even less nice afterwards to describe the difference between what I'd just done and what it's like/the process involved to have intra-articular joint injections in terms of 'you think that's bad? I've had to do this....'
Part of me wants to take the piss a bit more about him coming over all unnecessary about it, part of me is vaguely irritated that I don't have the luxury of being able to be squeamish about such things - and part of me feels sorry for the soppy sod that he's picked himself a defective model that has a top ten for injection sites to avoid (anything involving the phrases perifascial space, intra-articular space or 'whatever you do, DON'T MOVE' being said at least three times before anything touches the skin occupy the top three there), a list of preferred veins and one for what's decided to hurt like hell randomly today.
And then there's a fourth part which is more 'you're overthinking this, you found it funny because it's better than facing up to the reality that you've been in more or less constant pain one way or another since you were a toddler, he's lovely, it's just different to actually see a needle going in because it makes it more 'real' and he would have forgotten all about it five minutes later - you always do this when you're on the brink of a flare and you'll start feeling better in a couple of days, so take some paracetamol (because you're too stubborn to go back onto opiates) and go to bed'.
So, I guess my question is
AIBU for expecting him to not have an emotional reaction to something that he didn't expect and highlights just how crappy things really are?