I just can’t keep up with everyone else in the world and social media is probably to blame for my inferiority complex. If it was just me I’d be winding down and hibernating but we’re in a busy stage of life at the moment. DH just gets on with his job (endless fun projects) I do the bookkeeping part time so I’m default parent. I do all the child rearing, look after all the pets & do all the cooking, cleaning, food shopping. Young DS is an only child so I make sure evenings and weekends are fun with friends or visiting family. I should be happy but doing the same drudgery day in day out is making me lose motivation in life. Every day I have set things that I have to do to keep ticking over but it means I’m not moving forward with anything else in my life. I’m getting fatter, my hair is washed every day but left to air dry so I look like a fat troll. The deep cleaning is never done so I find having people over embarrassing even though the house is surface level clean and usually tidy. Our walls are still magnolia, grey has come into and out of fashion before I’ve even got round to sorting the decor 😂 and we’ve recently had an extension that has just been left as an empty room because I have no imagination and I feel overwhelmed trying to decide on a style. I have 20 emails I need to reply to but I’m avoiding because I’m the worst procrastinator. I should be able to handle all of this but I’m just not efficient like everyone else. Also going on holiday tomorrow in our caravan but I hate packing everything so I’ve avoided it all day and will probably be up til midnight in a last minute dash 😩 why am I like this?! How do you stay motivated?! How can I stop procrastinating about life?!