So my ex made a big thing about wanting all our kids to go for a meal today on his contact, and the kids Been talking about it, he really made it his mission to get our 18 and 19 year olds to come along with the little ones too ( the oldest don’t always go with him) and him and his wife, her kids, their kids together and all me and his kids are going for a nice family meal while I’m sat at home alone. ( I have no money to go or do anything plus he was 2 hours late picking up the kids for contact today which pushes my day back, he drives I don’t. )
I just feel so sad that I was once part of that family with him and my kids and I am no longer. This man emotionally and physically abused me. There has been a lot of post separation abuse aswell
He cheated on me several times and the last time was with who he married to now.
I can’t afford to take my kids on nice meals
I feel sad, left out, alone and worthless
yes I’m not saying they shouldn’t do it, I’m not making it my business at all BUT I am feeling these feelings
i am not for one second saying my ex is wrong for getting on with his days and going for nice meals but
am I being unreasonable feeling like this?
I am alone and have no one whilst everyone around me is happy and my kids see their dad as the hero, as the fun parent as he has loads of money. They see me as the poor boring one
i I don’t know what to do to snap out of this
i have just been diagnosed with adult ADHd and was told I need a autism assessment which he’s strongly say to see my GP to get another referral so maybe this is just my mental health conditions ‘heightening my feelings’
but I just feel pointless worthless and like I mean nothing