Bit of a reality check needed, I am going for a job I am really confident I’d be good at, I have already passed the written assessment and the initial interview and found them very straightforward. There is now a video interview and then a final interview.
Today I had the video interview which is one way, so a pre recorded person reads you the questions and you have to film your answer. There isn’t much info online about how to prep but I’ve got loads of STAR answers and rehearsed reading them aloud to myself.
No idea what happened really but speaking to the camera and seeing myself on the screen felt really alien and it killed my confidence and it really reflected in my voice. I froze up and couldn’t even finish the interview, questions I’d normally be good at answering became impossible, my mind went blank and my nerves and panic got the better of me and I shut the laptop and cried. I only got 3 of the questions done.
I am usually a very loud and confident person so this has totally rattled me. My current job is all about communication skills! DP is trying her best to comfort me, but usually if you fail the video interview you have to start the whole application again in a few months time and I’m totally angry at myself. I’ve emailed the recruiter to say I ran into some problems and couldn’t complete it but haven’t heard back yet.
I feel like a failure as there are 21 year olds who pass this video interview easy peasy and I’m well into my 30s and just couldn’t do it and don’t understand why. I would be so confident answering these questions face to face with someone.
Should I even try again, or just find something else where I don’t have to jump through this hoop? Sounds ridiculous but I feel like I’ll need to pay for coaching to get through this and it makes me question if it’s worth it and what is actually the issue here. Anyone else had problems with this?