I didnt know what to title this.
i had a really lovely supportive thread on here about 2 years ago. I got cheated on on my birthday.
im still not over it and i miss him everyday but i can go a few days without crying now. I havent been with anyone since but when I have some 'me time' with a battery operated friend, everytime i climax i burst out crying. Every time without fail. If i used it 3 times in an hour i would cry 3 times.
they are the biggest gut wrenching sobs. Why is this happening so long after the break up? Our sex was pretty unbelievable tbh but i dont think 'oh god im so horny i need to sleep with someone' i cant do that without a strong connection but im sick of trying to have a small dopamine hit without bawling immediately after.